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SHE WAS ONE OF THOSE
PRETTY AND CHARMING GIRLS BORN, as though fate had blundered over
her, into a family of artisans. She had no marriage portion, no
expectations, no means of getting known, understood, loved, and
wedded by a man of wealth and distinction; and she let herself be
married off to a little clerk in the Ministry of Education. Her
tastes were simple because she had never been able to afford any
other, but she was as unhappy as though she had married beneath her;
for women have no caste or class, their beauty, grace, and charm
serving them for birth or family. their natural delicacy, their
instinctive elegance, their nimbleness of wit, are their only mark
of rank, and put the slum girl on a level with the highest lady in
the land.
She suffered endlessly, feeling herself born for every delicacy and
luxury. She suffered from the poorness of her house, from its mean
walls, worn chairs, and ugly curtains. All these things, of which
other women of her class would not even have been aware, tormented
and insulted her. The sight of the little Breton girl who came to do
the work in her little house aroused heart-broken regrets and
hopeless dreams in her mind. She imagined silent antechambers, heavy
with Oriental tapestries, lit by torches in lofty bronze sockets,
with two tall footmen in knee-breeches sleeping in large arm-chairs,
overcome by the heavy warmth of the stove. She imagined vast saloons
hung with antique silks, exquisite pieces of furniture supporting
priceless ornaments, and small, charming, perfumed rooms, created
just for little parties of intimate friends, men who were famous and
sought after, whose homage roused every other woman's envious
longings.
When she sat down for dinner at the round table covered with a
three-days-old cloth, opposite her husband, who took the cover off
the soup-tureen, exclaiming delightedly: "Aha! Scotch broth! What
could be better?" she imagined delicate meals, gleaming silver,
tapestries peopling the walls with folk of a past age and strange
birds in faery forests; she imagined delicate food served in
marvellous dishes, murmured gallantries, listened to with an
inscrutable smile as one trifled with the rosy flesh of trout or
wings of asparagus chicken.
She had no clothes, no jewels, nothing. And these were the only
things she loved; she felt that she was made for them. She had
longed so eagerly to charm, to be desired, to be wildly attractive
and sought after.
She had a rich friend, an old school friend whom she refused to
visit, because she suffered so keenly when she returned home. She
would weep whole days, with grief, regret, despair, and misery.
***
One evening her husband came home with an exultant air, holding a
large envelope in his hand.
" Here's something for you," he said.
Swiftly she tore the paper and drew out a printed card on which were
these words:
"The Minister of Education and Madame Ramponneau request the
pleasure of the company of Monsieur and Madame Loisel at the
Ministry on the evening of Monday, January the 18th."
Instead of being delighted, as her-husband hoped, she flung the
invitation petulantly across the table, murmuring:
"What do you want me to do with this?"
"Why, darling, I thought you'd be pleased. You never go out, and
this is a great occasion. I had tremendous trouble to get it. Every
one wants one; it's very select, and very few go to the clerks.
You'll see all the really big people there."
She looked at him out of furious eyes, and said impatiently: "And
what do you suppose I am to wear at such an affair?"
He had not thought about it; he stammered:
"Why, the dress you go to the theatre in. It looks very nice, to
me...."
He stopped, stupefied and utterly at a loss when he saw that his
wife was beginning to cry. Two large tears ran slowly down from the
corners of her eyes towards the corners of her mouth.
"What's the matter with you? What's the matter with you?" he
faltered.
But with a violent effort she overcame her grief and replied in a
calm voice, wiping her wet cheeks:
"Nothing. Only I haven't a dress and so I can't go to this party.
Give your invitation to some friend of yours whose wife will be
turned out better than I shall."
He was heart-broken.
"Look here, Mathilde," he persisted. :What would be the cost of a
suitable dress, which you could use on other occasions as well,
something very simple?"
She thought for several seconds, reckoning up prices and also
wondering for how large a sum she could ask without bringing upon
herself an immediate refusal and an exclamation of horror from the
careful-minded clerk.
At last she replied with some hesitation:
"I don't know exactly, but I think I could do it on four hundred
francs."
He grew slightly pale, for this was exactly the amount he had been
saving for a gun, intending to get a little shooting next summer on
the plain of Nanterre with some friends who went lark-shooting there
on Sundays.
Nevertheless he said: "Very well. I'll give you four hundred francs.
But try and get a really nice dress with the money."
The day of the party drew near, and Madame Loisel seemed sad, uneasy
and anxious. Her dress was ready, however. One evening her husband
said to her:
"What's the matter with you? You've been very odd for the last three
days."
"I'm utterly miserable at not having any jewels, not a single stone,
to wear," she replied. "I shall look absolutely no one. I would
almost rather not go to the party."
"Wear flowers," he said. "They're very smart at this time of the
year. For ten francs you could get two or three gorgeous roses."
She was not convinced.
"No . . . there's nothing so humiliating as looking poor in the
middle of a lot of rich women."
"How stupid you are!" exclaimed her husband. "Go and see Madame
Forestier and ask her to lend you some jewels. You know her quite
well enough for that."
She uttered a cry of delight.
"That's true. I never thought of it."
Next day she went to see her friend and told her her trouble.
Madame Forestier went to her dressing-table, took up a large box,
brought it to Madame Loisel, opened it, and said:
"Choose, my dear."
First she saw some bracelets, then a pearl necklace, then a Venetian
cross in gold and gems, of exquisite workmanship. She tried the
effect of the jewels before the mirror, hesitating, unable to make
up her mind to leave them, to give them up. She kept on asking:
"Haven't you anything else?"
"Yes. Look for yourself. I don't know what you would like best."
Suddenly she discovered, in a black satin case, a superb diamond
necklace; her heart began to beat covetousIy. Her hands trembled as
she lifted it. She fastened it round her neck, upon her high dress,
and remained in ecstasy at sight of herself.
Then, with hesitation, she asked in anguish:
"Could you lend me this, just this alone?"
"Yes, of course."
She flung herself on her friend's breast, embraced her frenziedly,
and went away with her treasure. The day of the party arrived.
Madame Loisel was a success. She was the prettiest woman present,
elegant, graceful, smiling, and quite above herself with happiness.
All the men stared at her, inquired her name, and asked to be
introduced to her. All the Under-Secretaries of State were eager to
waltz with her. The Minister noticed her.
She danced madly, ecstatically, drunk with pleasure, with no thought
for anything, in the triumph of her beauty, in the pride of her
success, in a cloud of happiness made up of this universal homage
and admiration, of the desires she had aroused, of the completeness
of a victory so dear to her feminine heart.
She left about four o'clock in the morning. Since midnight her
husband had been dozing in a deserted little room, in company with
three other men whose wives were having a good time. He threw over
her shoulders the garments he had brought for them to go home in,
modest everyday clothes, whose poverty clashed with the beauty of
the ball-dress. She was conscious of this and was anxious to hurry
away, so that she should not be noticed by the other women putting
on their costly furs.
Loisel restrained her.
"Wait a little. You'll catch cold in the open. I'm going to fetch a
cab."
But she did not listen to him and rapidly descended-the staircase.
When they were out in the street they could not find a cab; they
began to look for one, shouting at the drivers whom they saw passing
in the distance.
They walked down towards the Seine, desperate and shivering. At last
they found on the quay one of those old nightprowling carriages
which are only to be seen in Paris after dark, as though they were
ashamed of their shabbiness in the daylight.
It brought them to their door in the Rue des Martyrs, and sadly they
walked up to their own apartment. It was the end, for her. As for
him, he was thinking that he must be at the office at ten.
She took off the garments in which she had wrapped her shoulders, so
as to see herself in all her glory before the mirror. But suddenly
she uttered a cry. The necklace was no longer round her neck!
"What's the matter with you?" asked her husband, already half
undressed.
She turned towards him in the utmost distress.
"I . . . I . . . I've no longer got Madame Forestier's necklace. . .
."
He started with astonishment.
"What! . . . Impossible!"
They searched in the folds of her dress, in the folds of the coat,
in the pockets, everywhere. They could not find it.
"Are you sure that you still had it on when you came away from the
ball?" he asked.
"Yes, I touched it in the hall at the Ministry."
"But if you had lost it in the street, we should have heard it
fall."
"Yes. Probably we should. Did you take the number of the cab?"
"No. You didn't notice it, did you?"
"No."
They stared at one another, dumbfounded. At last Loisel put on his
clothes again.
"I'll go over all the ground we walked," he said, "and see if I
can't find it."
And he went out. She remained in her evening clothes, lacking
strength to get into bed, huddled on a chair, without volition or
power of thought.
Her husband returned about seven. He had found nothing.
He went to the police station, to the newspapers, to offer a reward,
to the cab companies, everywhere that a ray of hope impelled him.
She waited all day long, in the same state of bewilderment at this
fearful catastrophe.
Loisel came home at night, his face lined and pale; he had
discovered nothing.
"You must write to your friend," he said, "and tell her that you've
broken the clasp of her necklace and are getting it mended. That
will give us time to look about us."
She wrote at his dictation.
***
By the end of a week they had lost all hope.
Loisel, who had aged five years, declared:
"We must see about replacing the diamonds."
Next day they took the box which had held the necklace and went to
the jewellers whose name was inside. He consulted his books.
"It was not I who sold this necklace, Madame; I must have merely
supplied the clasp."
Then they went from jeweller to jeweller, searching for another
necklace like the first, consulting their memories, both ill with
remorse and anguish of mind.
In a shop at the Palais-Royal they found a string of diamonds which
seemed to them exactly like the one they were looking for. It was
worth forty thousand francs. They were allowed to have it for
thirty-six thousand.
They begged the jeweller not tO sell it for three days. And they
arranged matters on the understanding that it would be taken back
for thirty-four thousand francs, if the first one were found before
the end of February.
Loisel possessed eighteen thousand francs left to him by his father.
He intended to borrow the rest.
He did borrow it, getting a thousand from one man, five hundred from
another, five louis here, three louis there. He gave notes of hand,
entered into ruinous agreements, did business with usurers and the
whole tribe of money-lenders. He mortgaged the whole remaining years
of his existence, risked his signature without even knowing it he
could honour it, and, appalled at the agonising face of the future,
at the black misery about to fall upon him, at the prospect of every
possible physical privation and moral torture, he went to get the
new necklace and put down upon the jeweller's counter thirty-six
thousand francs.
When Madame Loisel took back the necklace to Madame Forestier, the
latter said to her in a chilly voice:
"You ought to have brought it back sooner; I might have needed it."
She did not, as her friend had feared, open the case. If she had
noticed the substitution, what would she have thought? What would
she have said? Would she not have taken her for a thief?
***
Madame Loisel came to know the ghastly life of abject poverty. From
the very first she played her part heroically. This fearful debt
must be paid off. She would pay it. The servant was dismissed. They
changed their flat; they took a garret under the roof.
She came to know the heavy work of the house, the hateful duties of
the kitchen. She washed the plates, wearing out her pink nails on
the coarse pottery and the bottoms of pans. She washed the dirty
linen, the shirts and dish-cloths, and hung them out to dry on a
string; every morning she took the dustbin down into the street and
carried up the water, stopping on each landing to get her breath.
And, clad like a poor woman, she went to the fruiterer, to the
grocer, to the butcher, a basket on her arm, haggling, insulted,
fighting for every wretched halfpenny of her money.
Every month notes had to be paid off, others renewed, time gained.
Her husband worked in the evenings at putting straight a merchant's
accounts, and often at night he did copying at twopence-halfpenny a
page.
And this life lasted ten years.
At the end of ten years everything was paid off, everything, the
usurer's charges and the accumulation of superimposed interest.
Madame Loisel looked old now. She had become like all the other
strong, hard, coarse women of poor households. Her hair was badly
done, her skirts were awry, her hands were red. She spoke in a
shrill voice, and the water slopped all over the floor when she
scrubbed it. But sometimes, when her husband was at the office, she
sat down by the window and thought of that evening long ago, of the
ball at which she had been so beautiful and so much admired.
What would have happened if she had never lost those jewels. Who
knows? Who knows? How strange life is, how fickle! How little is
needed to ruin or to save!
One Sunday, as she had gone for a walk along the Champs-Elysees to
freshen herself after the labours of the week, she caught sight
suddenly of a woman who was taking a child out for a walk. It was
Madame Forestier, still young, still beautiful, still attractive.
Madame Loisel was conscious of some emotion. Should she speak to
her? Yes, certainly. And now that she had paid, she would tell her
all. Why not?
She went up to her.
"Good morning, Jeanne."
The other did not recognise her, and was surprised at being thus
familiarly addressed by a poor woman.
"But . . . Madame . . ." she stammered. "I don't know . . . you must
be making a mistake."
"No . . . I am Mathilde Loisel."
Her friend uttered a cry.
"Oh! . . . my poor Mathilde, how you have changed! . . ."
"Yes, I've had some hard times since I saw you last; and many
sorrows . . . and all on your account."
"On my account! . . . How was that?"
"You remember the diamond necklace you lent me for the ball at the
Ministry?"
"Yes. Well?"
"Well, I lost it."
"How could you? Why, you brought it back."
"I brought you another one just like it. And for the last ten years
we have been paying for it. You realise it wasn't easy for us; we
had no money. . . . Well, it's paid for at last, and I'm glad
indeed."
Madame Forestier had halted.
"You say you bought a diamond necklace to replace mine?"
"Yes. You hadn't noticed it? They were very much alike."
And she smiled in proud and innocent happiness.
Madame Forestier, deeply moved, took her two hands.
"Oh, my poor Mathilde! But mine was imitation. It was worth at the
very most five hundred francs! . . . "